Lost and found.
Josh, the journey Some moments during the day I stop and realize just how lost I am, just how many questions there are. Today we watched Into the Wild, fuel to my inner fire. I cried tears of confusion and understanding.
Josh and I then went to town and had a nice late lunch, with pie. I have been getting better at asking him questions about those times in his life when he was filled with questions about who he was and where he was going. He is such a wonderful teacher. I could not ask for more in a partner and confidant. I find so much peace in his stories, in him telling me of the times that he spent learning living, it is almost as visceral as the peace I find in the scent of his beard. Though, it is easier for me to hide in his beard then open up about my questions, fears, and confusion. Yet, I always find, when I do open up the conversation that unfolds I come back to time and time again, as a sanctuary, when my thoughts over-consume me.
In other news, we found a house to move into. The things I love about it-- lots of windows, a garage (which will probably serve as studio space), a huge FENCED IN backyard with a HUGE tree. I feel really happy about this space we have found to abide for a bit. Especially with summer coming up, Delilah and Barrett are going to love the backyard, as will we! I feel rather overwhelmed with packing and moving this next week. Its going to be a struggle, but with a sweet reward. Oh! Forgot to mention, the new house has both heat and central air. Blessed are the small things.
