My prayer has been: "Help me, help me."
the journey Hello long time. It seems the last few posts on this page of mine in the Universe has started with an apology. I am truly sorry for my absence, both on this page and in the whole of life in general. Last night the wave of all this change began to crash into me and I started to realize all the different aspects of my life I have been absent from, in order to persevere and accomplish this move that we have made (we are living in Columbia now). While I understand that it is necessary for this to happen, there is no possible way I can focus on the all of the variety of obligations I have built into my life and still be able to accomplish the things that have needed to be done, I still mourn and grieve over the things I have had to set aside for a season.
I don't even know where to begin writing now? I am at a loss. So much has happened, so much has changed, and all I want to do is sleep. I feel like an infant, new to the world and overly stimulated, in need of constant naps in order for their mind to process through all the newness and wonder around them. There is so much swirling around me at the moment that I barely feel up to the challenge of confronting it all. So I'm not sure I will. I think, perhaps, I might take a different approach. I want to start meditating again, and writing. Time and time again when I sit quietly and all of my thoughts start to strangle my sanity I return to those two solutions. Stream of consciousness writing and meditation, confronting it all as it comes and letting it all slide by. And prayer, I've been praying a lot. Mostly my prayers go something like this: "Mama, I need comfort, help me, help me please." I think this is enough, really.
In other news, on our last visit to the midwives we got to hear our baby's heart beat. I was in awe and wonder the rest of the day, Cloud Nine. I will write more about this.
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A prayer based on Psalm 6, for all those who are hurting. In the generation that we live, crying out to God is a necessity. May these words inspire you to talk to your heavenly Father. He is always ready and willing to hear and help you. Give God your problems, there is no need to carry the burdens of life when the Lord can do it for you.
Lord,
I come to You with a repentant heart. Please forgive me for the things I have done. Please hear when I call out to You. Lord, You are my righteous God. You can make my life right and You alone can free me from my grief. I know that You can relieve my distress.
Father, have mercy on me. Please hear my prayer. I am weak from battling the sins that come at me and the thoughts of my own mind. My body aches to be freed from the troubles that this world brings.
mood ring