trying to calm my blood

good lord, i don't even know where to start. its been a week since i've posted, a lot has happened in a week. a lot has happened, period. much that i haven't even begun to document here, or anywhere really. and i haven't a clue where to begin. so i'll start with tonight.
earlier in the day i was feeling fine-- like i had a relative grasp on life. and now tonight i am itchy and angsty and my blood is electric. so i am sitting here drinking a cup of chamomile tea, for its calming properties, and trying to chill out (except i'm burning up).
alright, i'm going to make a list of things i would like to write about in more depth:

1. i had to take the kitten to the humane society. i spent a whole day in tears.
2. i finished reading eat, pray, love. it has filled me with all kinds of notions and longings.
3. now i'm reading ordinary magic and it is so, so good.
4. i need to start a more structured meditative practice.
5. i need to clean and organize our house more thoroughly.
6. i've been dealing with depression here lately.
7. i got to see my two childhood best-friends and there families on saturday, july 26th, at the st. louis zoo. that was amazing. i felt so terribly sad to leave them.
8. there was an phenomenal show that came to town recently, the pack a.d. (listen to their music!!), a band from Vancouver, B.C., Canada. my husband set the show up. it kicked ass.
9. i have photos from nashville and stories to tell from that trip.
10. i started guitar lessons.
11. a lot of times i feel like my plate is too full.
12. i could go on and on i'm sure, but i should stop here.