Upward Mobility
the journey 
Another happy photo by my husband, have I mentioned how nice it is being married to a photographer? So, so nice :)
Yesterday was a much needed day of mourning, rest, and recuperation. I allowed my self to feel the sorrow that was in my heart, I was gentle with my hurting parts. Crying was very cleansing, sleeping was probably the most healthy thing I could have done. Today I was able to take small steps back into upward mobility, and I believe that is due to the fact that I allowed myself to feel what I needed to feel.
I processed through a lot yesterday, and that followed through into this morning. I conversed with one very good friend, my husband, my mom, and also a brand new friend about different aspects of the things that I was feeling. That was very powerful. I needed to get it out, to hear my own heart and allow it to be heard. And I needed to hear the hearts of people who love me.
Today I woke up with the resolve of living the uncertainty, living the questions. I chose to not allow them to debilitate me. I got up out of bed and started drawing my day on a clean slate. I took small steps, but they have been monumental in getting me back. I did the dirty dishes that have been long lingering in the kitchen, I cleaned and rearranged Mr. Sparky Bandito's habitat, I started back to work on my schooling. Tonight I was able to use new found creative energy to make some delicious Chickpea Italiana sandwiches for supper. It is always a good indicator that my spirit is doing well if I am able to think creatively about our meals. It felt so good to create that meal and then be nourished by it.
A nice little surprise we experienced tonight was that the local college station had a great line up on their Country/Folk show. It was entitled "Dylan Minus Dylan" a night of Bob Dylan songs not performed by the man himself. There was some incredible music on, it was so nice to listen to that while we enjoyed our dinner. After that was over we then watched Juno, on of my favorite movies. Josh hadn't seen it yet so that was super fun.
I feel good tonight. Thank you all for your love and support. You haven't any idea what it means to me. SO much love, xoxo!
Reader Comments (2)
i am glad your day was such a beautiful one ^.^
i've had Juno on my comp for a while and have yet to see it either. i'm just waiting for the right time i suppose.
tell me about these sandwiches! i love chickpeas! i make hummus a lot so i always have a steady supply.
Hey, Maggie Ann. ~
Sounds like you had a most wonderful day, filled with the support of the people you love... who love you in return - aaaahhhh.... :-)
I also had a taking-joy-in-food afternoon, concocting a big pot of turkey chili, 2 pans of cornsticks and a Bundt banana bread - we were ready to explode (in a good way, Martha!).