Cycling through my mania.

Good Morning! I have been awake since 6am, the time which Delilah decided to start barking at invisible noises. She stayed the night with Josh and I last night. That being due to the fact that because of life busy-ness I hadn't seen her since Sunday. I always get lonesome for her when I haven't seen her for awhile. She is my baby. Right now she can't live with Josh and I because the apartment doesn't allow pets. She stays with my parents, which I think she enjoys, mostly because my dad lets her do whatever she wants. Every so often I will bring her to visit us at the apartment. Last night was one such night. Then it got to be late so we decided to just have her stay over with us.
It was pretty cute, just the three of us all snuggled up in bed. Delilah decided that the best spot for her was in between Josh and me. She also decided that she needed to lay her little head on part of the pillow. All was well, and typically she is a good sleeper, until she started to "hear" thing. I use the term hear very loosely. At times she really does hear thing, like this morning, when even I heard the downstairs neighbour hacking up a lung and then puking it in what I hope was the toilet, yet at other times I swear she is hallucinating, that or tapping into the supernatural realm.
So! Since 6am I have been awake, running through my head all the things I need to get done today. I'm going to make a list! My mother likes to call this side of me Maggie cycling through her mania. Now, I've never been diagnosed with manic depression in so many words, but I do take medication and that is a pretty good indicator of my mental/emotional capacity. I cycle through phases. Phase 1-- where I run myself up and down and over and over doing doing doing everything I can think of to do. Phase 2-- where I crash and turn into a lump for a few days. Now, in my mind I reconcile the lumpyness by thinking about all I accomplished through my mania. Hell, I'm sure there are people who accomplish constructive things everyday, and fuck give them a gold star... I, however am not one of those people. And I'm alright with that.
Anyway. In other news. Josh and I are going to Columbia/St. Louis this weekend. I'm pretty thrilled about that. Two shows and lots of friends to see. Excitingness ensuses.
Also, I've sucked at updating this blog here lately. I'm out of school with scads of time on my hands, I don't know what my problem is. Its like I've entered the stone age.
Yeah, I'm now going to write my todo list and look up how to make ice tea. I leave you with a typical picture of Delilah shunning the camera, because she is too delicate to have her picture taken.

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Originally uploaded by Most Sincerely.