100 Things Con't.
about me 50. I am clinically depressed.
51. There was once a time in my life when that was a major problem.
52. That was the dark time, that comes back to me in shadows-- only a vague outline of what was real can be delineated from the mental pain I was experiencing at that time.
53. It was during my participation in a very controlling religious situation. The words brainwashing and emotional abuse spring to mind.
54. I was also in a very unhealthy relationship at that time.
55. I was married at 19 and divorced at 20.
56. My family is my rock.
57. They and my dear friends picked me up and brushed my eyes so I could see clear enough to get help.
58. I have been managing my depression fairly well since the age of 20 (I'm now 22).
59. I have accepted that at this time I need medicinal aid, Holistic healthful outlook.
60. I am learning how to deal with my disease every single day. I no longer view this state as "mine" or a "disease"
61. I believe music can change your life.
62. Music has changed my life.
63. I have eras in my life defined my music.
64. Sometimes I feel I can taste music.
65. Sometimes it is the only things that helps.
66. My dog, Delilah is named such for the Plain White T's song, Hey There Delilah. I was laying on my couch, listening to that song on repeat, alone, many lonely night, way before it became the pop-phenomen-ugh that it has become (puh). It helped me in a way and that is why its Delilah's name, that and it means delicate, and she is just that.
67. My all time favorite artist is Todd Snider, but you already knew that.
68. He has shown me that the things in my heart are real, true and good.
69. We went to one of his shows this summer. He smiled at me.
70. He has made me understand peace, love, and anarchy.
Reader Comments (8)
i got married because my religious parents thought it was the "right thing to do".
youve got to be kidding me. i think you are my long lost twin. i was also married at 19 and divorced at 20.
Good thing that you got out of the unhealthy marital situation in time. You know, we all live and learn. What's really sad is when people who claim to believe in God and to express love towards their peers, actually end up hurting you very deeply. But like you posted earlier, Jesus loves you and that's what counts!
Depression is a life-long battle - I know this from seeing a loved-one struggle with it. But many people have struggles, so you're not alone. Just keep talking to people that you judge worthy of your trust, and rely on your network, as well as spending quiet-time with yourself.
In any case, you seem very sweet and sincere - so as long as you live your life in a good way, logically you'll be okay! Hang in there my new blog pal!
Oops, the previous post was supposed to have been posted under my name, and not my companion's. So it was Susu and not Sebastien speaking... Sorry about that!!!
I like and agree with Susu. Life is a struggle, and all we can do is keep working at it.
Were you answering questions for this post or are these random comments you chose? Just curious, cause I'm thinking of doing the same thing on my blog =)
Yeah God is good, religion can be weird.
i think we should make a wonderful christmas shopping trip when i get out of school as well. and if we don't have money, i think we should make a wonderful christmas gift making day. but we also need to get together before then.
i misss you so bad.
tattooed mama-- we have so much in common its cra-zzzy. long lost twins :) my first marriage was also brought about by religion...
Susa-- Thank you for your wonderful words. They mean so much to me! So wise and understanding. Thank you again so much.
Nancy-- Thank you! And these were just random things off the top of my head :)
Alida-- I agree, God is good. Religion can be bad.
Maurineeee--- We do do do do do. I miss your worst.